But you know why you have to listen to me, the stupid boss? Because, eventually I am the one who is responsible. But of course, if something goes wrong, you are partly responsible and you know you will receive the brunt of the mistake. But so do I. We will be in it together. And you know what, that is life.

As the boss, I reserves the right to make the final decision. And who are you say no. You can argue with me, discuss with me but I have the final say. You are not happy with it. Fine. But you work for me, so please, do I as told you. No matter how stupid it is. Just do it. It is your responsibility to carry out my stupid assignments.

So, now, please stop yakking about me behind my back. Please continue with the stupid work which insults your intelligence.

And allow me to stupid for one day.

 P/s Pls do not reply email which is not intended for my reading to ‘all’.  Your future cooperation is highly appreciated.

Fifteen years ago when I started working, I earned Rm1600 per month. Today, fresh graduates with the same qualification can only make RM 1500 or less. Of course, the good ones manage to secure jobs with MNCs, and MNCs pay Rm2K++ plus perks. Fifteen years ago, I rented a 2-bedroom flat in Wangsa Maju at Rm300 per month. The flat is shared with two other people – each of us paid Rm100 per month. Now, a room is rented at RM 500 per month – or more. Fifteen years ago, I can filled the Proton Saga full tank at Rm60. Now, I have to pay RM 90 to fill up my  my citroen xsara.

Of course, fifteen years later, I make more money and therefore can live comfortably despite the fact that the cost of everything else goes up.  But, I really pity the young kids who are just starting. Same salary as mine fifteen year ago but the price of everything else is about 30% more than fifteen years ago. I found fifteen years ago with Rm1600, cukup-cukup makan. But these yound kids have to share a room with nine other people, eat instant noodles and take commuter trains in order to survive with their small salaries.

I am not only  sad with the state of the country’s economy  but I am also sad with the state of the country’s social problems. Malaysia is one of the rudest country in the world. I hate to admit it, but, yes, in general, our people are rude. Especially the people who live in big towns like KL. Whatever happen to “Budi Bahasa budaya Kita”. Just look at the way the young kids talk to their elders. Where do they learn to talk like that? And look at the way Malaysians drive.

I am working in the Klang Valley. In KL, everything needs to be done fast. We have to drive fast, we have to talk fast and we have to work fast. Everything must be completed ASAP if not yesterday . Everybody is expected to work overtime because we have to be “COMPETITIVE”. I tell you that sometimes I am tired of being KLites where people are rude and busy.

So what Merdeka means to me? Who has time to think. Celebrate? Celebrate what. Need to finish the tender which need to be submitted by Friday. Holiday go where? No where. Stuck inthe office doing work. Merdeka? Unfortunately, I am still a slave.  

Of course as Muslim, I believe in Qada and Qadar. But really, it is how we  feel about someting or about ourselves that make our experiences positive or negative. Anyway, according to a book I’ve read, we can achieve our desires by taking these 5 steps:

1. List your desires and goals
2. List any desires that you have already accomplished.
3. List any doubts/boulders/barriers that is blocking you from manifesting the above desires.
4. Sensorialize your desires
   1. create a vacuum
   2. invoke law of forgiveness
   3. visualization
5. Develop action plan to achive your desires.

In another reading materials, they also talk about giving. In order to get something, we must give something. In Islam, we also have the same concept. Sedekah, zakat and fitrah. And the ulamas always mention that these act of charity will make the giver become more prosperous – lebih murah rezeki. Wallahualam. Afterall, rezeki is from Allah.

Anyway, I have issue with Law of Forgiveness section. Mainly because I have problem forgiving somebody very close to me. According to the book, that person that I cannot forgive is blocking me from achieving my desires. Not only that, the person is draining all my energy. That is so-so true. I feel tired whenever I am close to him. And yes, I do feel that he is blocking me from achieving my desires. I will tell the stroy in another day. Meanwhile I am working on moving all my barriers by invoking the law of forgiveness. (it is not as simple as saying I forgive you – when in fact inside - you are still angry).

Wish me luck.

I have to admit that her description of her marriage-to-be with Datuk K sounds somewhat fairytale. BUT, I guess she needs to learn the ‘whole marriage thing’ on her own. Regardless of what people said.

So SITI, here to happy life. Cheers.